I Wait For The Call

In the snow that rolls
In the storm that roars
In the winds that fight
In the breath too light

In her eyes too deep
In the rains that sweep
In the mist of fire
In the souls that inspire

I see no fall
Yet, I wait for the Call.

And, he called me "A Beautiful Doll".

For me And for you

For all the love I showed,

And all the feelings that you never felt.

For all my life I have seen you,

And all the life that you showed. 

For all the colors that we shared,

And all the colors that you chased.

For all the time I waited,

And all that time you never valued.

For all the hard work I put in,

And all the results you reap.

For all the sacrifices I made,

And all the happiness you got.

For all the habits I changed,

And all the sarcasm you still showed.

For all my life I never made use of you,

And all your feeling is I owe a lot to you.

For all the prayers that I made,

And none of them touched your heart.

For all my noises in dark,

And all you did was hear me bark.

For all those drops that I shed,

And only water was what you saw in them.

For all the people that I avoided,

And for all of them I was avoided.

For all that sorrow that I hid,

And all the smiles that you saw.

For all the time we spent together,

And all the time you wasted on me.

For all that time you were my priority,

And all that time I was never on your mind.

For all my secrets that I shared

And all the fun that you shared.

For all those people who envied me,

And all those whom I envy now.

For all the fights you picked up,

And never did you forgive.

For all the marks that I have,

And all the love that you gave.

For all I did was loved you,

And all you did was let me go.

For we always met at cross-roads.

TRUST

From dawn to dusk my clouds were grey,

My every word is to pleed and prey,

If only trust you could lay.

Proving myself was my only lust ,

My hands reaching from core to crust,

All I asked you was only a little trust.

The darkest hours and my deepest thoughts. Everytime if I lacked somethig it was someones trust. If something in  this world is difficult to earn trust me its trust. An emotion wide expressed and most of the time badly supressed. Singing the lowest tune of life, I blame neither the consequenses nor the people, as cursing my self was what I had always done. I was bleeding in pain and shouting out, give me a chance, atleast a glance, open the door, trust me some more, buy me some time, Ill make things fine. I believe it was scream in vacume, remained unheard. Trust initiates a relation but I guess nothing was to happen with me. There was something which I lacked and it made sure that I lag.

We Always Let It Go

A blink would have worked wonders,

A word was enough to change the mindset,

A touch could have said it all,

But we always let it go..........

Our world would have changed,

Love would have loved us,

Life would have looked more beautiful,

But we always let it go..........

This path of life was different from all others. Never thought I would stand this way thinking when and how this happened. My eyes were numb, it was time to part. But, how do I leave those memories that were buried deep inside my heart. 

I stood there starring at him, he stood the other side. Our sight was freezed, nothing else looked more beautiful than each other. Even though a spark had left a deep mark, we behaved as if our feelings were soiled. We made a promise, an everlasting one, no matter what memories will never fade. It was difficult to say "Bye" but necessary as well. I was loosing something, finding it again somewhere else will be a difficult task, may be difficulty was the way of my life. Years after that accident (what I call it now), when I think of those days that laugh still echo's in my ears, I still remember that smell and that picture perfectly clear in my mind. Fate was the magician which showed many game plays.

I always questioned myself how did I let it go? but, consoling myself was like another habit that I have adapted, every time I cogent myself "when we cry even a drop of tear doesn't stay with us, how can we expect something to become so permanent in life. Everyone and everything has its own entry and exit. It was time to leave and we let it go."

Time To Catch

Time is so strange all alone lost in its own world. Cares for none yet, cared by everyone. I know not what the consequences will be and where my path leads me, but all I know is time is running fast and I have to run faster.

The deepest part of my cerebrum was convincing my heart to dry the water in those tantalizing eyes and never fade out that beautiful gesture that those rosy lips made, but underneath the brown cover my blood was running in pain. The world ripped apart to make a way. Every other path seemed so brighter than mine and every next step was so hard to take than the previous one. The stars twinkled less and darkness peeping deep into my soul. Felt like thousand rotten pieces even being one whole.

World may be beautiful I have no time to see, love may be sweet I have no time to feel. A long path to go and a short time to build. Through my eyes you see, you see not what you expect but only since years what my life had felt. Raising with every ray, bonding with every beam, searching in every theme, a meaning to my life and everything it leads to. My heart was craving, my mind was roaring. I was saving every quantum of my energy, hiding every sorrow deep inside my eyes, wished the rains could wash them away. Felt like a grasshopper on a green leaf too similar to be identified, losing my identity weeping to myself. 

Walking down the street felt so hard, is this precarious path of mine a mistake or a blissful memory and a treasure for life time. Took a long breath with a sigh! Now it was time to face whatever was the phase. My will was overruled by fate. I had no time to make things fine. Now all I know is the race is on, I had to run. I have no time to rest as it was my test. No idea how will I fare ensuring everything is fair. The path is long and I am yet to start. The time is running fast and I have to run faster.

Change

Change is another name of life that I have lived,

Every next day  to do better is what I have thrived,

Deep in my mind I felt if time can be tamed,

All this time to my heart I have lied,

By the time my feelings could be gauged,

The time would have already changed.

As change is another name of life that I have lived........